Because I always think you’re in my arms only to see you’re not, only to see you’re so out of reach, so far from me. Deny that I want you but as soon I close my eyes it’s all I see. #poem #poetry #turnedlyricsintoapoem #johnmayer #dreamingwithabrokenheart #personal (Taken with instagram)
And I used to believe when you said I was overreacting
but now I see that I shouldn’t have to deal with your bullshit.
And remember all of those nights when I needed you there but
you couldn’t be bothered? Well, now when you try to reach me
you’ll find the same thing.
So, now that I’m up and gone, you’ll only find a trail saying so long.
Don’t wonder why I don’t answer calls or reply to messages
not that you would notice anyways because I was counting the days
‘til I was officially let down, trying to see if you’d come around but you never did.
You may not see it at first but it’ll hit like Katrina in December before you know it
& you’ll remember all the shit I did for you & how you repaid me but by then it’ll be
too late for I’m sorry.
I won’t sit here and trash you like you never made me smile when you did
and those times I’ll forget but those times are not now.
Anyways, I’ve gotta go now so I hope you enjoy your time without me.
Everything I have seems to break within a year
from my overuse and abuse.
We’re coming to that mark also so
I can’t help but wonder if we’re breaking too?
Am I the only one that can see the cracks
or is it something I’m just imagining to numb
the guilt of walking away from you?
Tell me is it dangerous to leave
the one life you can see or
is it dumb to play it safe with a mediocre future?
Beginning of a new poem, perhaps? #poem #poetry #thoughts #personal #broken #break (Taken with instagram)
Tell me am I your best or is this just you settling for less?
Some days it feels magical and others it feels like the latter.
Like your batter choked while trying to hit the ball,
like you’ve hit a wall and have given up on finding a way through.
Always been told that life isn’t easy and love will bruise if you move too fast,
and if you asked me to be honest I’d say I never thought we’d last this long
but for some reason this song hasn’t ended.
Is it the melody that’s so sweet?
Is it the lyrics that sound so seductive?
Could it be the bass that leaves us sweaty with passion?
Is it that hook that seems to catch it before it goes too far?
Never letting go, never letting us go too far before we remember all the shit,
all that we shit we’ve pushed through to get to where we are
and that’s how whenever I start walking away I find myself turning around.
Turned around to look into those eyes once again and listening to your mouth
speak words it always knows to say.
So, another day passes, another fight, another misunderstanding is pacified
by adding another hook, another knot to the song, the string of our reclassified romance.
I’ll do whatever it takes to get out of this place.
As much as I love you, I can’t go back there,
to that darkness, that deep hole.
I keep trying to show
how much I’ve grown,
how much I’ve learned.
how much you’ve taught
but I keep getting pushed off
this ship, it’s sinking.
Can’t you see it?
You probably don’t.
It’s my fault,
you never do anything wrong.
I’ve held it in for so long,
for as long as I can take,
it’s driving me insane but you’re blind
to anything outside of your own mindset.
If it’s not the way you say then it’s too much,
too much stress,
too much drama,
too much work.
Don’t ask because I won’t stay.
I’m ready to go. All my bags are packed,
got my ticket in my hand, I’ve said goodbye,
and I’m ready to go. Don’t ask, I won’t stay.
I’d rather get up and go than stay here.
I’d rather find elsewhere to wait for the one,
that one that will love all the things you hate about me.
All those things you would change about me they couldn’t live without.
I wish there was another way but this is the way our chips fell.
Our ship sank and I must swim to shore if I want to survive.
We had some good times but that’s not enough to keep me here.
I’m ready to say goodbye, I’m ready to go, gave the ticket to the attendant.
Maybe we’ll meet again but until then I’m not your baby anymore.
Maybe we forced this to start too soon before it was ready?
I don’t know but I wouldn’t trade our memories in for anything.
Knight in shining armor. Yes, you are but it pains me that you might not be mine.
Everything. That’s what you mean to me.
You taught me so much and even though we fought much more I still love you.
So tell me do you still love me too?
Answer me please. An answer is all I need.
Never surrender if you still want it, if you still love them was a lesson you taught me.
Don’t push me away is the only thing I ask of you. Let me in.
Everyone can see how much you mean to me so don’t doubt what I say.
Remember all of the nights we fell asleep faraway but together, don’t forget our memories.
Savor every second we spent together because I always will.
And when it all comes down I’d still answer your phone call.
No matter what time it was or how much time passed.
And even though it all fell down I’d still text you back.
No matter what time it was or how much time passed.
And even though everything fell through you can still count on me.
No matter what you need. No matter where you need me.
Tell me and I’ll be that. Tell me and I’ll be there.
